First "Real" Ultrasound in One Week

I put the real in quotes above because I am imagining the ultrasound that we have scheduled next Monday to be in line with the one's I have seen on television. Up to this point I have never witnessed one of those first hand. I certainly have never been a week away from knowing whether Karyn is carrying a boy or a girl in her belly. It's pretty crazy to think about. I was picturing the room and the monitor last night. What I didn't picture was any of the particulars of what I might be looking at or what I might be feeling. But I can say that I'm not scared anymore. It is going to be however it is going to be. That sentence sounds like it doesn't make sense, but I believe it is quite possibly the truest statement that will be uttered on this blog. The images, the gender, the health, etc. are not dependent on the actions of Karyn or I. In fact, at this stage they may not be dependent on anyone or anything. Even God's plan is well in motion by this stage. If He chose for us to be blessed at this point, we will be. If not, we stay the course and keep the faith.

I guess you could say that I have found a nice amount of faith and contentedness in this journey. I could never promise that things will be okay even though I say it all the time. I only know that something will result and sometimes whatever will be will be. That reminds me of something: Que sera sera:

This week will feel longer than seven days. Next Monday will not be the most pleasant morning to wake up in the world. But it will happen and it will be great.